fajadejenka

Ramblings

Fri, 14 Dec 2007 03:04:47 GMT

I will be graduating this spring. Although I'll have a degree in my hand, I will likely still have no idea what I want to do with myself. I feel like I don't have enough life experience to make the right decision. But how do you get life experience? By living? I suppose what worries me the most is making a choice and going for it. I love safety and security, but to get my life experience I feel that I will have to give that up.

It's almost like I'm made up of two people. One part of me wants to move far, far away and teach English in some third world country. Yet the other side likes security, wants to play it safe. Go to graduate school or find a job with opportunity for advancement.

Does anyone else feel like you are totally unprepared for life in general and just wish someone would wave a magic wand and say: Here is you're life's goal and your reason for being. This is what you are here for. Or is it just me?

Wed, 03 Jan 2007 22:15:05 GMT

Tomorrow I have two interviews, and all my clothing is either a)hanging off my body or b) forming a second skin in all the wrong places. WTF. I've lost and gained so much weight I have a new body type than beforeand all my clothes were for my before body. Whatever I'm rambling.

Finals Stress...

Tue, 12 Dec 2006 03:11:40 GMT

Ok, I'm not sure I even want to admit this, but I'm so stressed out that I'm screwed up. While I'm consiously calm and with-it, I've been suffering constant stomache aches. I know it's because this is a really busy, wild week with a lot of major projects, papers and presentations due. However, today in Lit class when I heard that the Narnia children were killed off, I started crying. I'm not even PMSing, and no, I've not even read the books. My poor professor and class mates are now convinced I'm losing it, which maybe I am. Anyway, the point of this rant was to a) get this off my chest and b) Wish all my friends luck during finals and the "joys" of the holidays.

Mean People Suck

Fri, 08 Dec 2006 19:20:19 GMT

So the other day I walked to my car and saw what appeared to be a smudge of dirt on the rear end. But then how can there be dirt on *my* car? I just had it cleaned and waxed for winter, because it's not just a *car* to me. It's the steel extension of my soul, my golden child, my nimble sweetheart. Because you see, it wasn't dirt at all. It was the remnants of some hood-rat's game of lets-throw-a-cinder-block-at-a-car. Yup, that makes this the third car that I have had vandalized while parked at Fitchburg State. Count 'em: 3! And here's the clincher, to repair the car it's going to be $800 dollars, oh, and did I mention my insurance won't pay? WTF. So I guess that's Merry Christmas to me and my poor victimized baby. :(

Cuddles Are Nice

Mon, 04 Dec 2006 21:11:49 GMT

I got a feeling some of the fellas would disagree with this one...

I am so blessed...

Sat, 18 Nov 2006 03:31:55 GMT

Society demands that we make something of ourselves. We have to be kick-ass females with the high-power job, the trophy family and the lavish lifestyle. So we stress and stress about what we are going to do with our lives to get to that point. What major will we have? What internship? What about graduate school? What ever happened to life and having fun?

I'm just glad that for 2 hours every week I get to forget about all this. I'm so glad I've started riding again, I feel like I'm reconnecting with the old me. The side that isn't wracked with insecurities and doubts. It's documented that horses are good for therapy and I think they totally work for me. Anyway I'm rambling and as you can see from the posts I'm becoming totally addicted to those four-legged angels. It's a bit like crack I suppose, with less damage. lol.

I think I'm in love...

Wed, 01 Nov 2006 19:58:22 GMT

I just got back from a wonderful ride with Geronimo. He's a small horse (literally, he's only a inch taller than the pony cut-off), but he's an absolute blast! I can't wait until next Wed.

King Richard's

Sun, 15 Oct 2006 22:55:59 GMT

Went to King Richard's Sat.
Had too much mead (not a lot, just too much for me)
Had fun
But couldn't find Cristina.
Where the heck are you stationed?

My Culinary Masterpiece!

Sun, 01 Oct 2006 22:15:13 GMT

Holy crap I made this dipping oil tonight that was just divine. Thought that I would share. If anyone wants to know what the secret was... all my ingrediants were fresh and most I grew myself. MmmmMmmm good

LMAO!

Thu, 28 Sep 2006 17:15:45 GMT

So I'm sitting in the commuter cafe right now researching mistranslations of advertisements. All I can say is I'm trying really hard not to shit-a-brick laughing and everyone is staring at me. So I figured I would share this gem with you all: if anyone else wants a laugh go here: http://www.ojohaven.com/fun/translation.funnies.html and a google search will also turn up this site of non-english speakers learning the language- hysterical!

OMG

Sat, 23 Sep 2006 19:32:31 GMT

ahem need a cold shower after this quiz :)

Pretty boy
You scored 30% masculine, 47% athletic, 45% exotic, and 56% refined!

You like a man that looks like you can bring him home to mama. Clean, toned (but not over the top) and not the macho type. A genuine nice guy.....like Orlando Bloom. But let's face it, the whole point of this was to look at a bunch of hot guys. If you liked what you saw, please rate my test!

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 99% on masculine

You scored higher than 99% on athletic

You scored higher than 99% on exotic

You scored higher than 99% on refined

Link: The What type of MAN turns you on Test written by thinkandcome on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test

I wanna be a pin-up girl

Sat, 23 Sep 2006 18:55:35 GMT

The All-American
Rrrooowr!

You embody all the things those GI's are waiting to come back to! Your're sexy, adventureous, and confident.

My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 99% on Style

Link: The Which Pinup Girl Are You? Test written by emily_infini on OkCupid, home of the The Dating Persona Test

Like a hammock swinging in an apple tree..

Fri, 18 Aug 2006 01:55:43 GMT

I don't update often. huh.

I'm trying to pick where I want to go on vacation. I got the use of my parents time-share so I can go wherever the hell I want. Except Iceland and Alaska because RCI doesn't cover there (they wouldn't of course, seeing as how those were my top picks). I looking at Africa right now, but all that driving-on-the-left business makes me nervous. Any one want to suggest a place? It'll probably be in the summer, so no where too hot. For all of you wondering about Africa, August is their winter.

So there you go, suggest away. Where in the world should I go? Where would you go?

A good Book

Thu, 27 Jul 2006 18:39:54 GMT

Mitch Albom's The Five People You Meet in Heaven. Read it;it's quick and very good.

Vacation Bisnitch!

Wed, 28 Jun 2006 19:00:32 GMT

I'm leaving for vacation on Winnipesaukee. If anyone wants to visit give me a call on the cell.
BTW- Happy belated b-days to Amy and Cristina!

Laconia 2006

Thu, 08 Jun 2006 12:20:26 GMT

I'm off today to go work at the Laconia Biker Rally: for Harley Davidson. Not sure how it will be...But anyway, as a representative of HD, a Harley girl if you will, I have to look the part. My hair is well... almost white. I look like some Paris Hilton wannabe. LOL, if anyone wants to visit me I'm there everyday except for this Mon. Tues. and Wed. Wish me luck!

Law School

Tue, 23 May 2006 15:33:16 GMT

God I thought I finished this when I went to the 'Burg. The dirty 'Burg. LOL. I guess I'm just a little freaked out at spending over 150,000 on law school, which I'm not even sure that I will like.

Nervous...

Thu, 27 Apr 2006 18:18:32 GMT

With gas prices like they are I'm getting really nervous that Bush might get his wet dream and be able to drill for oil in Alaska. I think I'm going to send my donation to the Sierra Club now.

I Can't Fricken Beleive this!

Sat, 15 Apr 2006 18:18:55 GMT

Someone's stole my VIN number, plates and car model and used this info to run a counterfeit inspection sticker ring. I'm not making this up. I've been getting phone calls from police stations. Why me?

It's cliche but it's cool

Thu, 13 Apr 2006 23:44:22 GMT

Como Agua Para Chocolate.

Yes it's in spanish and yes it's a bit cliche to do the whole magic realism with Latin art. And yes it was a bit graphic and weird with naked women who need to do a little bushwhacking south of the border but it was totally cool.

Finally!

Thu, 23 Mar 2006 23:06:36 GMT

I just bought a car! After two fricken years of searching I just bought a 2001 Mazda Protege. Zoom Zoom Zoom bisnatch :>

Lettin' the bitch out

Wed, 08 Mar 2006 02:12:30 GMT

I just wrote a big long thing about what happened tonight but I don't feel like sharing. I'll just summarized, I've matured and I like what I see (in this instance).

I Rock My Own Socks Off!

Thu, 16 Feb 2006 02:49:16 GMT

I am a Sexual Goddess!!! All male animals of my species bow before me and tremble with desire. I am hot, I am smoking, I make women want to have a sex change just so they can get with me. I can make you spontaneously orgasm with just one look. When I strut my shit by, you see not my dimpled thighs nor my petite chesticles but sex, sin and lust personified. You want me, hell I want myself. I rock my own socks off!

Just stroking my ego a bit. Actually I recommend all the ladies (and gents) out there to do the same. Seems to me that we spend too much time focusing on our flaws to love ourselves. So reach your arms around yourself and squeeze, cuz you rock your socks off too!

Thu, 02 Feb 2006 02:52:42 GMT

I dyed my hair blonde.

Tue, 31 Jan 2006 02:43:51 GMT

Omg I have such a crush on this kid. I'm like a friggin school girl or something... hehehehe! :)